It is not accurate to feel insignificant

Originally posted on January 27, 2020

Recently, I have received several messages from Source showing me the bigger picture. Not many days ago while I was in the Akashic Records enjoying the incredible wonder of the expansiveness of the universe spread out in front of me, I received a message. And the message was not, "Hey, look how small you are in comparison to the incredulity of the Milky Way and beyond." Nor was it that "my life of less than one hundred years is hardly a drop in the magnificent existence of an infinite universe." The message was of inclusion. Not that I wasn't the expansiveness that I saw, but rather that I AM. I AM as the universe is.

Actually, word for word, the message I got is that, "it is not accurate to feel insignificant. Enjoy what you are a part of. And stop worrying so much about what's for dinner."

I was reading Humble the Poet's book, Things No One Else Can Teach Us, and in it he tells a story about a time when he was promoting the opening of a nightclub in Delhi. When he congratulated the owner on the opening, the response he got was to stand up straight with his arms out like Da Vinci's Vitruvian Man. He was then told, "Imagine the length of your wingspan representing all of existence; if that's the case, then human history represents only half the surface of the tip of your middle finger. None of this shit matters."

Essentially, stop worrying so much about what's for dinner. We get so caught up in the little details, or the rules, or the expectations, or the shoulds we have been so well-trained to just accept, that we don't even realize they are literally running our lives.

Isn't it maybe time to stop, zoom out for a minute, and be amazed at what we are a part of? Is it possible--just maybe--that the point of life is to be amazed by ourselves, to wonder at the miracle of it all, and to ENJOY it?

Are you enjoying your life? Or are you worrying about dinner? If we are such a small part of the universe as a whole, why are we spending so much time stressing, worrying, feeling anxious about things like when we take the soother away from the baby, looking good, how many degrees we have hanging on the wall, or if our car is sufficiently cool enough? Why wouldn't we spend every moment chasing good feelings?

Don't we all want to feel good more often?

We will most likely all answer this question with, "umm, obviously...yes!"

But then, wait five seconds for the BUT to come in when the heaviness of the rules of society start to simultaneously close in on us. The well-trained voices in our heads start to natter on with messages like,

"It is arrogant to be openly successful."

"You don't deserve to be forgiven or happy ever again."

"But everyone thinks you are silly and foolish. Who will take you seriously?"

"You are not a priority. If you don't give all your time, energy, and money to your kids and others, you are selfish."

"You should feel shameful for X hours because you lost your cool with your kids. Do not ever admit this to anyone."

"You must prove yourself worthy to your god."

These are just some of society's beliefs that have been imposed on us and passed down to us. Every single one of them is a lie that we have been trained to accept. And because we are good girls and boys, we have aptly accepted them and inherited them as the truth for us.

What these society-imposed rules have done is created an atmosphere in which it is not safe for us to be ourselves, to express who we really are. And when we try to step out into this world of such harsh restrictions, we are neither protected nor feel safe to be our authentic self, especially if there is a notable contrast from the status quo when we do. Shame inevitably sets in.

When that unrealistic world view with its competition and judgement doesn't work out for us, we are left to believe there is something inherently flawed about ourselves, that, somehow, we are wrong or bad or ugly. And that settles into our sense of self and creates deep feelings of unworthiness. Spiritually, we become disconnected because we do not feel valuable, seen, heard, safe, unconditionally loved, or that we even belong. Not anywhere. Not even with ourselves. It's intolerable, and it leads to sickness, sadness, disease and depression.

We feel broken. But we are not broken. The problem is that we were never taught to ask for what is right for ourselves. We were never promised and delivered safe environments that work for us when we deviate from the status quo.

We are still living in an atmosphere in which we are told, "Be yourself...NO, not like that." This world is turning out a lot of hatred, a lot of competition, and a lot of fear. The general atmosphere, globally, is a little terrifying.

But when we isolate individuals and take a moment to really connect, we find beautiful, loving people desiring and craving happiness and laughter and flow in their lives.

And the saddest, saddest thing of all is that so many of these wonderful people are blaming themselves and feeling, at very deep levels, that they are bad and wrong and undeserving of love and success and happiness. They are beautiful roses who are dying on the inside from the poison they have been fed. People's hearts are broken because they were promised shiny lives but were never taught of their own self-worth and value.

When our spirit is suffering, we cannot embrace the fullness of life. We self-sabotage and cannot hear beyond the large, barking dog of our trained ego. We cannot see beyond the near-sighted lens of the glasses we have been given. We have been hypnotized to pursue status, money, and the first-world dream of the cookie-cutter life.

What we need is to know ourselves, to have permission to express ourselves without having to register our reasons for being with any formal institution or person, and to truly enjoy our short existence in this vast universe. Because if our decisions aren't much more than a tiny speck within half the surface of the middle finger of all of existence, why wouldn't we choose

love instead of fear?

authenticity instead of comparison?

belonging instead of fitting in?

connection instead of competition?

fun instead of obligation?

self-expression instead of imposed regulations?

There are people out there who can and desire to help you see your true self and how to honour your authentic expression of yourself. There are people who have broken through the imposed illusion that was forced on them and can show you how to do the same.

There are people out there whose life purpose is to help other people to see their own unlimited value, to learn to love themselves, and to shift the undercurrent of their lives from painful resistance to harmonious flow.

Pursue these people. And if you're not sure where to look... I am one of them.

So much love,

Leanne